Yearly mind dump is upon me.
I wrote stuff but I deleted it. It was just too depressing. I'll just do a quick summary:
Family went from 6 to 4.
Wade goes back home soon, making it 3.
Our daughter is due in December, making it 4 again.
Still suffering from depression over Kat and Dad.
Got better from dad but got worse with Kat.
Been meditating to help gather my thoughts.
Reflected on the past 10 years and how my rebirth happened exactly 10 years ago when I decided to move back home.
I was a terrible person then. Like, just a total piece of work. Feels like a totally different person.
Excited to be a father. With my dad as my role model and my sister as my inspiration, I'm ready to be a father.
Sympathy weight is real. Like, damn real.
Gotta get healthier so I can keep up with my kids.
Regardless of all the losses, I still consider life as being pretty good. Pretty, um, pretty good.